had been going out quite alot these few daes, seriously gg no money le..lols..but i tink i will stop gg out tt often ...todae just went out , and bought a purple converse shirt..lols..yah, purple lor..my favourite colour wat..lols..but it looks kinda gay, but its nice..haha...gg cut a new hairstyle tomorro le..


carefully tout of it for the whole nite yesterdae...no point doing and continue all these and get exhausted mentally and physically..perhaps this is rly not the time to have all these, the 11 years of education i had before will be down the drain if anything screwed up..this is really the time to focus on my studies and my future..i had promised my parents to sleep before 11pm everydae during the weekdays and i will not use the computer that often animore, cuz the computer is losing its purpose..and i will finish all my tutorials and get back in form, like the form i had during mid yr exams in year 1 den..i will try to ACE my A lvls and focus on nothing else, since cca is soon coming to a stop...perhaps good frens are more important now..

this part is for u:

if it's even possible, i may ask u again after Alvls bah and if the answer is still the same, den i wont blame you also de..but one year is seriously a long stretch of time, so take one year and tink through it bah..i dun wan you to be bothered by this, just live ur life the way u want it to be..and enjoy the last one year of our friendship as i didnt treasure it well in the first year, which ended so fast.

sorrie for all the things that i had done previously that made u so emo..i shdnt have acted so rashly without even considering for your feelings, maybe i just didnt tink so much before i actualii sent that message...maybe we should just be good frens for the time being because friends are forever while couples are not for life..i noe that its not your fault but the problem lies with me..seriously i feel that im just not good enough for you bah..but thanks in the sense that i noe wat to improve on and change le..lol..maybe i just didnt show enough care and concern and didnt take enough initiative..maybe we should just focus mainly on our studies right now and put everything aside... But i still wanna thank you talking to me on msn and msg during the times that im not feeling very good. cus i would tink of you as the first one to talk to.


Just leave it to fate for the time being...Lastly, i would like to apologise to you again, ..SORRIE..

i now believe in something, that is 勉强是没有幸福的...didnt take tat sentence seriously but now i noe the meaning le.

this part is for my frens:

thanks for all the advice and suggestions u all had given me..and for the four bball guys, who would listen to me and talked to me at the bbq pit during chalet..i dun noe how bad my mood will be like if no one rly talked to me on that dae which i felt not so good..

thanks gigi also as u rly helped me alot..i apologise for treating u coldly during the start of the year because i tink that i had not talk to you well bahh

and thanks to all others who tried to console me bahh...

nice sentence by yongxiang : nvm.. dun be sad.. a real man learns their mistake and stand up on the same spot.. i definitely will de..

this part is for myself de:

i feel rly proud of myself because i finally felt that i had grown up...firstly because im able to overcome my own fear and courage and did things which may be even be possible in the past. secondly, i will sae things that i wont tink of saeing it at all...thirdly, i could get over with it quickly and sort things out at a rather fast pace...lastly, i would tink of others before myself and noe wat is my mistakes, even before others told mi..

IM OK NOW LE...I JUST WANNA STUDY FOR THE TIME BEING..LOLS..WILL BE PREFECTLY FINE AND BACK TO THE USUAL-ME WHEN NEW TERM STARTS...WISHING FOR THE BETTER..